Something across my mind all in sudden. I just find myself feeling sad. and it's unexplainable. even to myself.  I don't know whats wrong with me honestly. So many thing have happened throughout the past week. So many thing I wanted to tell, but i don't know where to start.
I really hope to meet up my high school friends, i really hope to have a gathering or at least a bbq party on my birthday. Can I?  I have so many thing I wanting to do, but i dont get a chance to complete it!
I have been Skipped ton of my accounting homework, wondering how I gonna survive in my final! I tried to retreat from everything, Especially my family and my studies. However, I know I can't evade the consequences of evading reality. I told myself Stop begin an ostrich, but HOW? it's not easy, it's not easy...
I shouldn't have lounged the day away, I need motivation. I need accompanies.. I have a lot of friends, but only few of them are true to me.        
I miss my boyfriend.
Thank You God for giving me a really good boyfriend, he has been there for me for the past 4 years, we go through years of suffering and all these monumentally stupid fight, and last we get back together. He gave me everything I want, He love me no matter how evil I am. He protect me, love me all the time. I love you dear, sorry for who I am.

September is just one step closer. Say good bye to August!.
When I was young, I asked , Why is it taking so long to be an adult!
When I was Teen, I asked, Why is everything past so freaking fast, I am getting order!
Now I am turning 20 Very soon! I can hardly believe it, I've leave my high school for 2 years ago. I miss everything.Sometime I talked about the old times with my boyfriend! We laugh at each other!---


Life have too much to care about! My mind was blank! Undeniably, there has something bothering around! I hope for a better life everyday. I hope for more everyday but without covetous thoughts, do you believe?

4 word to describe my feeling

Accounting drive me nut!

How much I wish I could comport harder that out of everyone has expected on me. I had a lot of homework, that I couldn't finish. Urgh! I wish It's all drawing instead of calculation.! Absolutely, I am out of charity with accounting.. No matter how hard I've tried to catch up all the homework! I just don't understand what am i doing with all these calculation. I feel like dying! Everyday we learnt something new, everyday we go thorough different chapter!

Anyway! it's time to hit to my bed. K thanks bai

Don’t be fooled by the calendar. There are only as many days in the year as you make use of

 

As the saying goes, live today as if it is your last day on earth. I believe life is worth living to the fullest each and every day. To hell with those nitty-gritty or wishy-washy stuff. Forget perfection. Forgot what you can’t have. Do what you can and enjoy what you have for now. I’ve learnt that in life

You can see how much I've changed! Life is hard but the sun still shines! No matter what happen I always love my life. Positive thinking really does change your brain. Not in some magical, woo woo kind of way, but in a real physical way.

Because I had been in the abyss of despaired for the past, feeling helpless all the time. Everything I did  worked out badly,it fared ill with me in everything. I hate relationship, I hate myself for begin lovesickness, i hate myself for begin greedy, all my actions are entirely mercenary. Can you Imagine how terrible is it? I live for money and I work for money! I didn't realize how terrible is my life and personality until someone told me how much I've changed. I always complaining about my life and my other half, complained why is my family always look down on me, dont even support me no matter what i want or what i do! Especially my dad.
Until the day I realized I am wrong, so wrong!
I asked myself, do you happy? do you happy to be like this? do you happy to feel depression all the time? do you happy to complaining how bad is your other half and so do you think you are the BEST?do you think money can buy you happiness? Money can buy you love? and buy you family &; friends? 


Certainly I am rather disappointed of myself. Silly much? ;) I knew! I've learnt from my mistake and actions!
I've learnt to be appreciate in everything, no matter its good or bad! I dont know what's going happen the next second. I just want to be happy. 

I love my life, I love everyone who surrounding me! I have nothing to complain about, my life's beautiful I got what I want. I go everywhere I want, I eat everything I want. I have a great and big family. I have a bunch of silly friends make me happy all the time. :D


Ok enough of my nonsense

Btw Prom Night  just a few days ago, everyone who seen them has been so amazed, the dresses are absolutely breathtaking! It's really a fun party with bunch of crazy teen!  I could never forget that day. :D

             Fanny and I! We knew each other for more than 16years :D i love her smile and kindness <3

K GTG Xoxo..

Betrayal is about learning not to idealize external sources.

 I finally got through the undang test, time seems to pass exceptionally rapidly. :)  just slightly changed something on my blog. do you love the song? Anyway, how've you been? My life's getting laborious, due to a lot of homework need to make up and follow up. Seriously accounting drive me nut, never ever think that's the most easier subject to study, we need calculation all the time, without calculate we will die badly. I'll deal with it somehow. I have no choice. :/


Sometimes when we fall down and need someone to talk about and that person just let us more down that we were.We go through life meeting lots of people.  Some make you happy, some make you smile, some can be counted and then there are some whom you would rather not have ever met.


True friends are hard to find, most of the time, people land up with wrong people, who are difficult to adjust with. With the increasing selfishness and cut throat competition between peers, it has become more difficult to find a person, who can be blindly trusted and looked upon in need. People can be really good friend in front of you, and begin friendly to you, just another one minutes another shell be taking about you, talk complete trash about you behind your back! But, life goes on and you make new friends. You push away your hurtful past and learn a valuable lesson from it.

A wise man once sat in the audience & cracked a joke.

All laughed like crazy. After a moment he cracked the same joke again and a little less people laughed this time. 

He cracked the same joke again & again.
When there was no laughter in the crowd, he smiled and said
"When u can't laugh on the same joke again & again, then why do u keep crying over the same thing over and over again"


Forgiving yourself or others who may have hurt you is key here.You must forgive first in order to forget!People are not perfect and everybody makes mistakes.

I'm tired but I never give up :')

I love the song . I will rest in you..

It's struck a deep chord in my mind. 

Time passed quickly as usual. In a twinkling, I've found that I don't have plenty of time to prepare my exam and revision. I am sick of my working life, it's too tiring for a full time student. I don't know what I really want, I shouldn't have separates my heart. It's too late for me to regret. I wanted to concentrate on my studies, just on studies My mind is in a turmoil, my mind was struggle desperately. I barely breathing! How mush i wish my life can be as simple as a child . 

Well I guess it's time to turn me into study mode. 

kbai 

엄마

죄송 해요 엄마
엄마, 난 그냥 당신이 나와 함께 있고 싶어요.
내가 당신을 잃을 까봐 두려워요
죄송합니다
미안 해요, 나 자신이 싫어. 미안 엄마.
엄마, 제가 당신을 사랑해, 당신의 건강을해야합니다.

i love my life

The priest preached everyone to fully appreciate with our life no matter how worst it is,  to love our family unconditional especially the parents, because they sacrifice a lot for us just for us to be born here in this world, they provide us our needs emotionally, spiritually and financially.And most of all they will accept us regardless of what we have and what we don't have.They will always ready to welcome us even we've done something wrong or our paths crooked.

I savvy enough to understand that every mother has a gold heart in the word !. I love my parents. We 'll never know their importance and value until we loose them. We must love them. Even when they get angry of us, punish us when we are kids, whatever they do, it's all for our benefit.
In brief, we own a lot to our parents, they aren't perfect, but chances are, no one will ever love you the same way.
Happy Mama's day. 
I love you mommy. <3

I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone.

It's always filled me with vague dread. 

Something always bothering around my mind, feeling emptiness inside my heart, but nobody know.

I am utterly detest and abhor when I lost my way, I don't know what I really want. 

I abhor myself for begin vexatious sometimes! I barely understand what we're fighting about. we grown weary of  wrangle, perhaps we need time to prove each other what we really want.

Only time could wear everything away.

A relationship is like a rose, how long it lasts no one knows. Love can erase an awful past, love can be yours, you'll see at last. To feel that love, it makes you sigh, to have it leave, you'd rather die. You hope you've found that special rose, because you love and care for the one you choose.

human are all violates inexpensive, because human always being too covetous, expect too much from others at last it's hurt deep inside when we couldn't get what we really want.
Promised is merely a psychological comfort. 
Never expect too much from people, make it easy everything will goes well. :D 

okey bye.

#life

Its 3rd of May today, the days speed by. I'm feeling more comforting and consoling now. Because I'm doing things that's worth in my life.
studying, homework, nails art, working and things that made my day productive. I think I like it.
Life is simple, it's just not easy.
College life is begin so lovely and comfortable to me, been touching level two of accounting one week ago, it's not as bad as I've expected really. There's still plenty of thing I need to learn so far in my course, to be exact there are five subjects I need to concentrate on. And I worked very hard, try my best on my studies just for my future. We should all be concerned about the future because we will have to spend the rest of our lives there.  You can choose how you want your future to be, but never give up any of the chance that god give to you.

I look forward to coming back again. I've lost more than I've won in life, so, believe me, I'm pretty much understanding of the situation and I can deal with it. I can deal with adversity.

If I have

So if you have a dream then just believe that you can achieve it no matter what. Even when you can't feel deep in your heart any words of encouragement, just believe in your dream and your heart will finally show you the way.

keep the history of our life.

I've never really been anywhere, and now I get to go everywhere. I just have to make sure there's enough memory on my computer to hold all my pictures

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I will thank God for the day and the moment I have.

If you laugh, you think, and you cry, that's a full day. That's a heck of a day. You do that seven days a week, you're going to have something special.

my breast friend

Blog is the shorten name for a web log, and it is public, it doesn't mean you can post anything here and tell the world how miserable is your life. 

I had my diary since I was 8.

I remember my wife used to peeped my diary, and beat me.

You know!  LAST TIME I was still a little darling. :)

I don't want to write down a series of what I did for everyday in a diary as most people do ,

  but I want it to be my Breast friend .

                       

It's a diary that keeps all my secret,thoughts and feelings.

You may want to use a journal to keep track of things that make you feel happy but me.