Something across my mind all in sudden. I just find myself feeling sad. and it's unexplainable. even to myself.  I don't know whats wrong with me honestly. So many thing have happened throughout the past week. So many thing I wanted to tell, but i don't know where to start.
I really hope to meet up my high school friends, i really hope to have a gathering or at least a bbq party on my birthday. Can I?  I have so many thing I wanting to do, but i dont get a chance to complete it!
I have been Skipped ton of my accounting homework, wondering how I gonna survive in my final! I tried to retreat from everything, Especially my family and my studies. However, I know I can't evade the consequences of evading reality. I told myself Stop begin an ostrich, but HOW? it's not easy, it's not easy...
I shouldn't have lounged the day away, I need motivation. I need accompanies.. I have a lot of friends, but only few of them are true to me.        
I miss my boyfriend.
Thank You God for giving me a really good boyfriend, he has been there for me for the past 4 years, we go through years of suffering and all these monumentally stupid fight, and last we get back together. He gave me everything I want, He love me no matter how evil I am. He protect me, love me all the time. I love you dear, sorry for who I am.