Something across my mind all in sudden. I just find myself feeling sad. and it's unexplainable. even to myself.  I don't know whats wrong with me honestly. So many thing have happened throughout the past week. So many thing I wanted to tell, but i don't know where to start.
I really hope to meet up my high school friends, i really hope to have a gathering or at least a bbq party on my birthday. Can I?  I have so many thing I wanting to do, but i dont get a chance to complete it!
I have been Skipped ton of my accounting homework, wondering how I gonna survive in my final! I tried to retreat from everything, Especially my family and my studies. However, I know I can't evade the consequences of evading reality. I told myself Stop begin an ostrich, but HOW? it's not easy, it's not easy...
I shouldn't have lounged the day away, I need motivation. I need accompanies.. I have a lot of friends, but only few of them are true to me.        
I miss my boyfriend.
Thank You God for giving me a really good boyfriend, he has been there for me for the past 4 years, we go through years of suffering and all these monumentally stupid fight, and last we get back together. He gave me everything I want, He love me no matter how evil I am. He protect me, love me all the time. I love you dear, sorry for who I am.

too far, it's too far

my mind is elsewhere..
my mind was in such a whirl!
We are all here, but we come from afar.
'*We are from different part of world.
You are standing far from my part
and we are looking for each other..*
I love you.
but I barely touch your heart.
I love you.
I have so much to talk to you.
but I don't know where', where to start!
It was difficult for me to conceive how to deal with the problem.
I don't know.
I am very ambivalent, because I am afraid.
I hate this feeling.. I gotta learn to live a life.
I shouldn't be in an aimless and silly way.
I'm so tired. How much I wish that everything is just a dream.


I dont know what i'm talking about...
bye

why

by- Journey Junkie.

No matter how much women might wish that men stop lying to them, men still continue to lie. Some are better at it than others, and some do it once in a while and others do it often. What's strange is that women often know or have an inkling that men are lying to them. So why do men lie to women anyway?

smile

Stop lying to me.

All of you. Just stop

it. I would rather be

told the truth, even if

it's harsh as hell, than

be lied to. So just stop.

my life

I regretted that I didn't put much effort when I was young.

LOOK forward n put much effort from now onward.

 always remember I am still young.

Wherever you go, go with all your heart

Dear:  

Can you hear me? My heart was in a twirl and I had lots of emotions. I dont know what do I really want. I'm lost 

Baby.

God will not look you over for medals, degrees, or diplomas, but for scars.


ilub-eu

我懂后来你，不是不坚持

生活还好吗？脑海里不停地想着，这真的是我要的吗？我害怕，害怕在一次被伤害.

我想-但是我没有信心我不知道我能否接受未来发生的事.

我真的很想-但是失去了信任，这还有意思吗？

我害怕被骗，我害怕哭的感觉，我总觉得很没安全感.

没关系，让时间冲淡这一却.

没关系，我还有妈咪还有姐姐.

我就像一支枯了的花.

我真的很努力很努力，让自己开心我真的很努力.

我记得最后一句话，

我很讨厌你.

真的吗？我很累了

I've cried for you for so long, that the tears will no longer come.

sometimes, I asked myself. what do I really want? Thing are like forcing me! I am tired of everything..