Something across my mind all in sudden. I just find myself feeling sad. and it's unexplainable. even to myself.  I don't know whats wrong with me honestly. So many thing have happened throughout the past week. So many thing I wanted to tell, but i don't know where to start.
I really hope to meet up my high school friends, i really hope to have a gathering or at least a bbq party on my birthday. Can I?  I have so many thing I wanting to do, but i dont get a chance to complete it!
I have been Skipped ton of my accounting homework, wondering how I gonna survive in my final! I tried to retreat from everything, Especially my family and my studies. However, I know I can't evade the consequences of evading reality. I told myself Stop begin an ostrich, but HOW? it's not easy, it's not easy...
I shouldn't have lounged the day away, I need motivation. I need accompanies.. I have a lot of friends, but only few of them are true to me.        
I miss my boyfriend.
Thank You God for giving me a really good boyfriend, he has been there for me for the past 4 years, we go through years of suffering and all these monumentally stupid fight, and last we get back together. He gave me everything I want, He love me no matter how evil I am. He protect me, love me all the time. I love you dear, sorry for who I am.

Betrayal is about learning not to idealize external sources.

 I finally got through the undang test, time seems to pass exceptionally rapidly. :)  just slightly changed something on my blog. do you love the song? Anyway, how've you been? My life's getting laborious, due to a lot of homework need to make up and follow up. Seriously accounting drive me nut, never ever think that's the most easier subject to study, we need calculation all the time, without calculate we will die badly. I'll deal with it somehow. I have no choice. :/


Sometimes when we fall down and need someone to talk about and that person just let us more down that we were.We go through life meeting lots of people.  Some make you happy, some make you smile, some can be counted and then there are some whom you would rather not have ever met.


True friends are hard to find, most of the time, people land up with wrong people, who are difficult to adjust with. With the increasing selfishness and cut throat competition between peers, it has become more difficult to find a person, who can be blindly trusted and looked upon in need. People can be really good friend in front of you, and begin friendly to you, just another one minutes another shell be taking about you, talk complete trash about you behind your back! But, life goes on and you make new friends. You push away your hurtful past and learn a valuable lesson from it.

A wise man once sat in the audience & cracked a joke.

All laughed like crazy. After a moment he cracked the same joke again and a little less people laughed this time. 

He cracked the same joke again & again.
When there was no laughter in the crowd, he smiled and said
"When u can't laugh on the same joke again & again, then why do u keep crying over the same thing over and over again"


Forgiving yourself or others who may have hurt you is key here.You must forgive first in order to forget!People are not perfect and everybody makes mistakes.

Friendship isn't always easily described.

Your friendship is special

Like the flowers that bloom,

Or when a butterfly emerges

From within its cocoon...

You remind me of that butterfly,

Loving and free,

Bright and colorful,

For the world to see...

We will share sunshine and rainbows;

Sometimes, the rain and the snow;

We'll stand together through it,

While the cold winds blow...

When the time is right,

We won't stop to ask "Why?"

Our friendship will take flight

On the wings of a butterfly ...

But

It's all different Now.

I never wanted to think it,
But somehow I knew,
Our friendship would fade,
Just like a memory in time.

i love my life

The priest preached everyone to fully appreciate with our life no matter how worst it is,  to love our family unconditional especially the parents, because they sacrifice a lot for us just for us to be born here in this world, they provide us our needs emotionally, spiritually and financially.And most of all they will accept us regardless of what we have and what we don't have.They will always ready to welcome us even we've done something wrong or our paths crooked.

I savvy enough to understand that every mother has a gold heart in the word !. I love my parents. We 'll never know their importance and value until we loose them. We must love them. Even when they get angry of us, punish us when we are kids, whatever they do, it's all for our benefit.
In brief, we own a lot to our parents, they aren't perfect, but chances are, no one will ever love you the same way.
Happy Mama's day. 
I love you mommy. <3

I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone.

It's always filled me with vague dread. 

Something always bothering around my mind, feeling emptiness inside my heart, but nobody know.

I am utterly detest and abhor when I lost my way, I don't know what I really want. 

I abhor myself for begin vexatious sometimes! I barely understand what we're fighting about. we grown weary of  wrangle, perhaps we need time to prove each other what we really want.

Only time could wear everything away.

A relationship is like a rose, how long it lasts no one knows. Love can erase an awful past, love can be yours, you'll see at last. To feel that love, it makes you sigh, to have it leave, you'd rather die. You hope you've found that special rose, because you love and care for the one you choose.

human are all violates inexpensive, because human always being too covetous, expect too much from others at last it's hurt deep inside when we couldn't get what we really want.
Promised is merely a psychological comfort. 
Never expect too much from people, make it easy everything will goes well. :D 

okey bye.

#life

Its 3rd of May today, the days speed by. I'm feeling more comforting and consoling now. Because I'm doing things that's worth in my life.
studying, homework, nails art, working and things that made my day productive. I think I like it.
Life is simple, it's just not easy.
College life is begin so lovely and comfortable to me, been touching level two of accounting one week ago, it's not as bad as I've expected really. There's still plenty of thing I need to learn so far in my course, to be exact there are five subjects I need to concentrate on. And I worked very hard, try my best on my studies just for my future. We should all be concerned about the future because we will have to spend the rest of our lives there.  You can choose how you want your future to be, but never give up any of the chance that god give to you.

#love

Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly. 

I look forward to coming back again. I've lost more than I've won in life, so, believe me, I'm pretty much understanding of the situation and I can deal with it. I can deal with adversity.

Trust no one, tell your secrets to nobody and no one will ever betray you.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes 

suspicion, not proof, to destroy it. 

Your boyfriend should also be your best friend.

• The one you TALK to about anything; everyday and every night.
• The one who makes you SMILE when you think you can’t.
• The one who knows EXACTLY what to say.
• The one who KNOWS when you’re sad and can do something about.
• The one whose ALWAYS there.
• The one giving you ADVICES when needed.
• The one who has your BACK through anything.
• The one who lets you COME OVER anytime and anywhere.
• The one to SURPRISE you with gifts.
• The one who knows EVERYTHING about you.
• The one who will ACCEPT you mistake after mistake.
• The one who will LOVE you for who you are.

#life

I believe that life is a journey, often difficult and sometimes incredibly cruel, but we are well equipped for it if only we tap into our talents and gifts and allow them to blossom

If I have

So if you have a dream then just believe that you can achieve it no matter what. Even when you can't feel deep in your heart any words of encouragement, just believe in your dream and your heart will finally show you the way.

I will thank God for the day and the moment I have.

If you laugh, you think, and you cry, that's a full day. That's a heck of a day. You do that seven days a week, you're going to have something special.

Too much of a good thing can be wonderful

When I'm good, I'm very good. When I'm bad I'm better.

Remember, the greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree, but in the hearts of true friends.

Although we've come to the end of the road, still I can't let you go, it's unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you .  I love you so much best friends. 

I feel fine and comfortable with my friends.

why

by- Journey Junkie.

No matter how much women might wish that men stop lying to them, men still continue to lie. Some are better at it than others, and some do it once in a while and others do it often. What's strange is that women often know or have an inkling that men are lying to them. So why do men lie to women anyway?

I am who I am today because of the choices I made yesterday.

It's hard to accept, but you can't change the past. You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. Because life'd be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But you can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, you will make mistakes. And yes, you will have bad days - but as long as you let the past go, you'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of you. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person. Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream that you have the chance you use something amazing from. So grab hold of it.

my life

I regretted that I didn't put much effort when I was young.

LOOK forward n put much effort from now onward.

 always remember I am still young.