You makes me absolutely crazy. Like seriously the feeling of breathless doesn't feel good at all.

在我世界里没有king & queen 这两个角色. 这种感觉，很难受让我觉得我没有权力保护自己，人始终会变.
我学会忍，可是你已经超越我的限度.
我不懂得如何把一个人当成自己的king & queen去对待! 难道一段感情，亲情和友情都要一个king & queen 来做领导，让king & queen 控制一切吗？我极度讨厌这个东西! 这真的令我很矛盾.

It's too late to regret what I've done. I love you. I'm sorry. Forgive me.

Skies are crying I am watching Catching teardrops in my hands Only silence as it's ending, like we never had a chance Do you have to, make me feel like there is nothing left of me?
[Chorus]You can take everything I have You can break everything I am Like I'm made of glass Like I'm made of paper Go on and try to tear me down I will be rising from the ground Like a skyscraper! Like a skyscraper!
As the smoke clears I awaken, and untangle you from me Would it make you, feel better to watch me while I bleed? All my windows, still are broken But I'm standing on my feet
[Chorus]You can take everything I have You can break everything I am Like I'm made of glass Like I'm made of paper Go on and try to tear me down I will be rising from the ground Like a skyscraper! Like a skyscraper!
[Bridge]Go run, run, run I'm gonna stay right here Watch you disappear, yeah Go run, run, run Yeah it's a long way down But I am closer to the clouds up here
You can take everything I have You can break everything I am Like i'm made of glass Like i'm made of paper, Ohhh woaah Go on and try to tear me down I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper! Like a skyscraper!
Like a skyscraper! Like a skyscraper!

It's 20/9 today! time seems to pass exceptionally rapidly. 2 more day  till my birthday I'm still 18 soon going to be 19? or 19 soon going to be 20? O;  Im scared of getting wrinkly, i get depressed when i look back at my photos when i was still in high school, most ppl say i look 23 or older than that. Im scared of getting old larh!! omg,, not like old old but like my youth is running out....and now on top of that i can say that "I'm two decades old". Which just sounds old.but we can't stop it! everyone will turn 20 whether or not you want to, so what I told myself is that all I can do is make the absolute best of the youth that I do have left and not worry about my age.  Wait! im actually eased my self by saying that :O  

anyway I've no idea what should I say again! :x just when the moment i wanna to type more and my mind go blank as usual!

I wanted to get more freelance job! :(  I'm officially broke! Urghhhhh...

Something across my mind all in sudden. I just find myself feeling sad. and it's unexplainable. even to myself.  I don't know whats wrong with me honestly. So many thing have happened throughout the past week. So many thing I wanted to tell, but i don't know where to start.
I really hope to meet up my high school friends, i really hope to have a gathering or at least a bbq party on my birthday. Can I?  I have so many thing I wanting to do, but i dont get a chance to complete it!
I have been Skipped ton of my accounting homework, wondering how I gonna survive in my final! I tried to retreat from everything, Especially my family and my studies. However, I know I can't evade the consequences of evading reality. I told myself Stop begin an ostrich, but HOW? it's not easy, it's not easy...
I shouldn't have lounged the day away, I need motivation. I need accompanies.. I have a lot of friends, but only few of them are true to me.        
I miss my boyfriend.
Thank You God for giving me a really good boyfriend, he has been there for me for the past 4 years, we go through years of suffering and all these monumentally stupid fight, and last we get back together. He gave me everything I want, He love me no matter how evil I am. He protect me, love me all the time. I love you dear, sorry for who I am.

September is just one step closer. Say good bye to August!.
When I was young, I asked , Why is it taking so long to be an adult!
When I was Teen, I asked, Why is everything past so freaking fast, I am getting order!
Now I am turning 20 Very soon! I can hardly believe it, I've leave my high school for 2 years ago. I miss everything.Sometime I talked about the old times with my boyfriend! We laugh at each other!---


Life have too much to care about! My mind was blank! Undeniably, there has something bothering around! I hope for a better life everyday. I hope for more everyday but without covetous thoughts, do you believe?

4 word to describe my feeling

Accounting drive me nut!

How much I wish I could comport harder that out of everyone has expected on me. I had a lot of homework, that I couldn't finish. Urgh! I wish It's all drawing instead of calculation.! Absolutely, I am out of charity with accounting.. No matter how hard I've tried to catch up all the homework! I just don't understand what am i doing with all these calculation. I feel like dying! Everyday we learnt something new, everyday we go thorough different chapter!

Anyway! it's time to hit to my bed. K thanks bai

Don’t be fooled by the calendar. There are only as many days in the year as you make use of

 

As the saying goes, live today as if it is your last day on earth. I believe life is worth living to the fullest each and every day. To hell with those nitty-gritty or wishy-washy stuff. Forget perfection. Forgot what you can’t have. Do what you can and enjoy what you have for now. I’ve learnt that in life

You can see how much I've changed! Life is hard but the sun still shines! No matter what happen I always love my life. Positive thinking really does change your brain. Not in some magical, woo woo kind of way, but in a real physical way.

Because I had been in the abyss of despaired for the past, feeling helpless all the time. Everything I did  worked out badly,it fared ill with me in everything. I hate relationship, I hate myself for begin lovesickness, i hate myself for begin greedy, all my actions are entirely mercenary. Can you Imagine how terrible is it? I live for money and I work for money! I didn't realize how terrible is my life and personality until someone told me how much I've changed. I always complaining about my life and my other half, complained why is my family always look down on me, dont even support me no matter what i want or what i do! Especially my dad.
Until the day I realized I am wrong, so wrong!
I asked myself, do you happy? do you happy to be like this? do you happy to feel depression all the time? do you happy to complaining how bad is your other half and so do you think you are the BEST?do you think money can buy you happiness? Money can buy you love? and buy you family &; friends? 


Certainly I am rather disappointed of myself. Silly much? ;) I knew! I've learnt from my mistake and actions!
I've learnt to be appreciate in everything, no matter its good or bad! I dont know what's going happen the next second. I just want to be happy. 

I love my life, I love everyone who surrounding me! I have nothing to complain about, my life's beautiful I got what I want. I go everywhere I want, I eat everything I want. I have a great and big family. I have a bunch of silly friends make me happy all the time. :D


Ok enough of my nonsense

Btw Prom Night  just a few days ago, everyone who seen them has been so amazed, the dresses are absolutely breathtaking! It's really a fun party with bunch of crazy teen!  I could never forget that day. :D

             Fanny and I! We knew each other for more than 16years :D i love her smile and kindness <3

K GTG Xoxo..