You makes me absolutely crazy. Like seriously the feeling of breathless doesn't feel good at all.

在我世界里没有king & queen 这两个角色. 这种感觉，很难受让我觉得我没有权力保护自己，人始终会变.
我学会忍，可是你已经超越我的限度.
我不懂得如何把一个人当成自己的king & queen去对待! 难道一段感情，亲情和友情都要一个king & queen 来做领导，让king & queen 控制一切吗？我极度讨厌这个东西! 这真的令我很矛盾.

It's too late to regret what I've done. I love you. I'm sorry. Forgive me.

Skies are crying I am watching Catching teardrops in my hands Only silence as it's ending, like we never had a chance Do you have to, make me feel like there is nothing left of me?
[Chorus]You can take everything I have You can break everything I am Like I'm made of glass Like I'm made of paper Go on and try to tear me down I will be rising from the ground Like a skyscraper! Like a skyscraper!
As the smoke clears I awaken, and untangle you from me Would it make you, feel better to watch me while I bleed? All my windows, still are broken But I'm standing on my feet
[Chorus]You can take everything I have You can break everything I am Like I'm made of glass Like I'm made of paper Go on and try to tear me down I will be rising from the ground Like a skyscraper! Like a skyscraper!
[Bridge]Go run, run, run I'm gonna stay right here Watch you disappear, yeah Go run, run, run Yeah it's a long way down But I am closer to the clouds up here
You can take everything I have You can break everything I am Like i'm made of glass Like i'm made of paper, Ohhh woaah Go on and try to tear me down I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper! Like a skyscraper!
Like a skyscraper! Like a skyscraper!

It's 20/9 today! time seems to pass exceptionally rapidly. 2 more day  till my birthday I'm still 18 soon going to be 19? or 19 soon going to be 20? O;  Im scared of getting wrinkly, i get depressed when i look back at my photos when i was still in high school, most ppl say i look 23 or older than that. Im scared of getting old larh!! omg,, not like old old but like my youth is running out....and now on top of that i can say that "I'm two decades old". Which just sounds old.but we can't stop it! everyone will turn 20 whether or not you want to, so what I told myself is that all I can do is make the absolute best of the youth that I do have left and not worry about my age.  Wait! im actually eased my self by saying that :O  

anyway I've no idea what should I say again! :x just when the moment i wanna to type more and my mind go blank as usual!

I wanted to get more freelance job! :(  I'm officially broke! Urghhhhh...

Something across my mind all in sudden. I just find myself feeling sad. and it's unexplainable. even to myself.  I don't know whats wrong with me honestly. So many thing have happened throughout the past week. So many thing I wanted to tell, but i don't know where to start.
I really hope to meet up my high school friends, i really hope to have a gathering or at least a bbq party on my birthday. Can I?  I have so many thing I wanting to do, but i dont get a chance to complete it!
I have been Skipped ton of my accounting homework, wondering how I gonna survive in my final! I tried to retreat from everything, Especially my family and my studies. However, I know I can't evade the consequences of evading reality. I told myself Stop begin an ostrich, but HOW? it's not easy, it's not easy...
I shouldn't have lounged the day away, I need motivation. I need accompanies.. I have a lot of friends, but only few of them are true to me.        
I miss my boyfriend.
Thank You God for giving me a really good boyfriend, he has been there for me for the past 4 years, we go through years of suffering and all these monumentally stupid fight, and last we get back together. He gave me everything I want, He love me no matter how evil I am. He protect me, love me all the time. I love you dear, sorry for who I am.

September is just one step closer. Say good bye to August!.
When I was young, I asked , Why is it taking so long to be an adult!
When I was Teen, I asked, Why is everything past so freaking fast, I am getting order!
Now I am turning 20 Very soon! I can hardly believe it, I've leave my high school for 2 years ago. I miss everything.Sometime I talked about the old times with my boyfriend! We laugh at each other!---


Life have too much to care about! My mind was blank! Undeniably, there has something bothering around! I hope for a better life everyday. I hope for more everyday but without covetous thoughts, do you believe?

4 word to describe my feeling

Accounting drive me nut!

How much I wish I could comport harder that out of everyone has expected on me. I had a lot of homework, that I couldn't finish. Urgh! I wish It's all drawing instead of calculation.! Absolutely, I am out of charity with accounting.. No matter how hard I've tried to catch up all the homework! I just don't understand what am i doing with all these calculation. I feel like dying! Everyday we learnt something new, everyday we go thorough different chapter!

Anyway! it's time to hit to my bed. K thanks bai

Don’t be fooled by the calendar. There are only as many days in the year as you make use of

 

As the saying goes, live today as if it is your last day on earth. I believe life is worth living to the fullest each and every day. To hell with those nitty-gritty or wishy-washy stuff. Forget perfection. Forgot what you can’t have. Do what you can and enjoy what you have for now. I’ve learnt that in life

You can see how much I've changed! Life is hard but the sun still shines! No matter what happen I always love my life. Positive thinking really does change your brain. Not in some magical, woo woo kind of way, but in a real physical way.

Because I had been in the abyss of despaired for the past, feeling helpless all the time. Everything I did  worked out badly,it fared ill with me in everything. I hate relationship, I hate myself for begin lovesickness, i hate myself for begin greedy, all my actions are entirely mercenary. Can you Imagine how terrible is it? I live for money and I work for money! I didn't realize how terrible is my life and personality until someone told me how much I've changed. I always complaining about my life and my other half, complained why is my family always look down on me, dont even support me no matter what i want or what i do! Especially my dad.
Until the day I realized I am wrong, so wrong!
I asked myself, do you happy? do you happy to be like this? do you happy to feel depression all the time? do you happy to complaining how bad is your other half and so do you think you are the BEST?do you think money can buy you happiness? Money can buy you love? and buy you family &; friends? 


Certainly I am rather disappointed of myself. Silly much? ;) I knew! I've learnt from my mistake and actions!
I've learnt to be appreciate in everything, no matter its good or bad! I dont know what's going happen the next second. I just want to be happy. 

I love my life, I love everyone who surrounding me! I have nothing to complain about, my life's beautiful I got what I want. I go everywhere I want, I eat everything I want. I have a great and big family. I have a bunch of silly friends make me happy all the time. :D


Ok enough of my nonsense

Btw Prom Night  just a few days ago, everyone who seen them has been so amazed, the dresses are absolutely breathtaking! It's really a fun party with bunch of crazy teen!  I could never forget that day. :D

             Fanny and I! We knew each other for more than 16years :D i love her smile and kindness <3

K GTG Xoxo..

It's been a while

Hello Girls! 

I know how long I've neglected this blog It's not that I've run out of Idea, just when the moment I ready to click on *new post, my mind is blank all of sudden. I've lost my major on Twitter and blog sorry for the neglected! 

Nyway I just finished an accounting revision for tomorrow exam, It was a mad rush!
It's been 24th days into August! Time filed really fast! Everything keep changing and changing.
So tired, yes you heard me right. I've been fight for my pocket money for sometimes, if you are one my closer friends or stalker* :P you should really know What am i doing recently. And Yes! Here you go! > Forever Young 11 
Admittedly, it's my another new business!  Just started, like 1 month ago, everything seems Good! Yes GOOD! I am appreciated what I have now! ;) I am heartily glad for everything that my friends given to me by support and sponsor me! I am one lucky girl. Thank You God ;) 

Betrayal is about learning not to idealize external sources.

 I finally got through the undang test, time seems to pass exceptionally rapidly. :)  just slightly changed something on my blog. do you love the song? Anyway, how've you been? My life's getting laborious, due to a lot of homework need to make up and follow up. Seriously accounting drive me nut, never ever think that's the most easier subject to study, we need calculation all the time, without calculate we will die badly. I'll deal with it somehow. I have no choice. :/


Sometimes when we fall down and need someone to talk about and that person just let us more down that we were.We go through life meeting lots of people.  Some make you happy, some make you smile, some can be counted and then there are some whom you would rather not have ever met.


True friends are hard to find, most of the time, people land up with wrong people, who are difficult to adjust with. With the increasing selfishness and cut throat competition between peers, it has become more difficult to find a person, who can be blindly trusted and looked upon in need. People can be really good friend in front of you, and begin friendly to you, just another one minutes another shell be taking about you, talk complete trash about you behind your back! But, life goes on and you make new friends. You push away your hurtful past and learn a valuable lesson from it.

A wise man once sat in the audience & cracked a joke.

All laughed like crazy. After a moment he cracked the same joke again and a little less people laughed this time. 

He cracked the same joke again & again.
When there was no laughter in the crowd, he smiled and said
"When u can't laugh on the same joke again & again, then why do u keep crying over the same thing over and over again"


Forgiving yourself or others who may have hurt you is key here.You must forgive first in order to forget!People are not perfect and everybody makes mistakes.

I cant live a day without music!

I'm sitting here in a boring room
It's just another rainy Sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time, I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around, I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast, I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely, I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I wonder how, I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue, blue sky
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning, turning, turning, turning, turning around
And all that I can see is just another lemon tree

Sing, dah



Take a music bath once or twice a week for a few seasons.  You will find it is to the soul what a water bath is to the body. 

Friendship isn't always easily described.

Your friendship is special

Like the flowers that bloom,

Or when a butterfly emerges

From within its cocoon...

You remind me of that butterfly,

Loving and free,

Bright and colorful,

For the world to see...

We will share sunshine and rainbows;

Sometimes, the rain and the snow;

We'll stand together through it,

While the cold winds blow...

When the time is right,

We won't stop to ask "Why?"

Our friendship will take flight

On the wings of a butterfly ...

But

It's all different Now.

I never wanted to think it,
But somehow I knew,
Our friendship would fade,
Just like a memory in time.

I miss being with you every second

and moment everyday and every smile

I see warming my heart knowing you love me

and taking my hand for I was your girl.

I need you.

For I miss you so dearly.

I miss your hugs.

I felt so safe when I was around you

I miss you.

I'm tired but I never give up :')

I love the song . I will rest in you..

It's struck a deep chord in my mind. 

Time passed quickly as usual. In a twinkling, I've found that I don't have plenty of time to prepare my exam and revision. I am sick of my working life, it's too tiring for a full time student. I don't know what I really want, I shouldn't have separates my heart. It's too late for me to regret. I wanted to concentrate on my studies, just on studies My mind is in a turmoil, my mind was struggle desperately. I barely breathing! How mush i wish my life can be as simple as a child . 

Well I guess it's time to turn me into study mode. 

kbai 

忍

#sunday

love is just love, it can never be explained.

엄마

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too far, it's too far

my mind is elsewhere..
my mind was in such a whirl!
We are all here, but we come from afar.
'*We are from different part of world.
You are standing far from my part
and we are looking for each other..*
I love you.
but I barely touch your heart.
I love you.
I have so much to talk to you.
but I don't know where', where to start!
It was difficult for me to conceive how to deal with the problem.
I don't know.
I am very ambivalent, because I am afraid.
I hate this feeling.. I gotta learn to live a life.
I shouldn't be in an aimless and silly way.
I'm so tired. How much I wish that everything is just a dream.


I dont know what i'm talking about...
bye